Yesterday was a life changing day for me not that I won a lottery per se nor won a big time project in my freelance community site, it is a simple email with a bang..I am just a typical woman with a average mind compare to the genius and intellectual woman in the corporate world we had today..but passing US brainbench.com aptitude, assessment, and skilled online exam makes me feel a little proud of what I have stocked between my two ears (lol!!) that examination leads me to a better career growth, as others usually say a chance of a lifetime I was pre selected to a scholarship grant with financial aid to Maharishi University of Management- Fairfield,Iowa USA a 7 months masters degree course and a 2 years work afterward.
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It was a exciting day for me never in my entire existence that I expect such a great chance to study abroad and just to spend $100 for student visa $ 60 for the form and your fare and that’s it… you are there taking a one step to your dream to the so called land of honey and milk. Out of excitement my sleepy mood (still bitin of sleep! after my night shift duty) turn into vibrant mixed emotions and the first person I shared my sentiment is my beautiful, ever ready and just a few click away friend- ganda owen one of my few best friend ever since(hmmpp..let me think decades ago?? ha!ha!ha love you ganda!!) my friend is excited just like me and very happy for the luck that knocks unexpectedly.
But reality sometimes is hard as we think..to grab that opportunity means leaving my baby boy and my online team and my clients as well?? and how about my hubby that will be home after 2 months?? it will took me nearly 3 years before I can get back home and 3 long years away from all my love ones is too hard for me…
As a typical reaction I send a off line message to my husband telling about the scholarship grant, but deep inside me I know he will not feel the same happiness as I do, not because he will feel less of a man because of my achievements but because he does not want me to leave period.. I know that because in the past more than three opportunities to work abroad was turn down simply because my husband advice me to be contented of what I had.. of what we have…
My husband and I had a heart to heart confrontation last night about my eagerness to make it a try and on the other line of the satellite skype broadcast was depending and explaining the pros and cons of working and leaving and all that..this might be a chance of a lifetime to someone but not for me…and I realize something out of it..and the end of the day FAMILY will always be the priority even how hard you dream of that opportunity..
My husband is a good man a responsible man, he is not a saint and he do have some errors and few lapses in our marriage life but it does not made him a less of a prince charming for me..he is the very same knight I always dream, ever ready to depend and take responsibility of his family no matter how sacrifices he made..ever supportive and idealist and most of all a family man..he does not want me to leave because he loves me and he needs me more than I need him.. we make a simple married life achieving things one at a time, we can’t make millions a year but we are happy, the simple yet quality time we had can’t be trade by any means of successful career I might have if go and pursue the scholarship grant in the US and I wouldn’t regret any single chance that I turn down several chances of working abroad because for me the life my husband that gave to me is enough for me to be contented and happy in this lifetime after all it is not what you achieved in life that truly makes you happy but who is with you when you achieved it that matters..
We do have the ability to choose what we want in life and as a woman , a mother, a individual we can’t be truly happy if we don’t know what our priorities in life..we can’t have all we wanted in this lifetime..but we can have TRUE LOVE that will last till eternity and once you missed that LOVE and you trade it with something less of value you will be sorry in your remaining years…
I love my home, my family, my friends, my cuddly baby boy and most of all the man who teaches me the simplicity of life..it is not the richness of this world that can truly made us happy it is the love that someone has to offer and share that made us rich…iloveyou dad and thank you for everything..for making me what I am now and for the many decades that we will share in the future..you and NJ will always be my priority!!!
excess: to all my friends who will read this excuse my typos and grammatical errors tao lang po and it is hard to write if you are teary eyes..thanks for patronizing my blogs
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okay lang! if you need a shoulder to cry on, i am just a call away!
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